January 2011
16 posts
I give myself all the points in the world for being suck a fuck up…Question: Why can i help everyone else w/ their issues but my own.Answer: I have no idea
The Days
There are the days that go by where i don’t think about you.I sit there in silence on it,I cry on it,I yell on it i even take it out on Jason.Sometimes i wonder why you had to leave the way you did.I miss you alot.I know your in a better place thats why i am okay and happy you didn’t have to suffer anymore.I regret not going to your funeral i mean you were my 1st i should have been...
The Dream
So i had this dream last night and it wasn’t any ordinary dream that i usually have.Last night and that day was not the best that i had.There is so much i wish i could take back and not have been such an ass.But i guess thats what payback is for right…Anyways it was a nightmare i dreamed that we grew apart and started to hate each other but you would think it would end but idk if it...
Theres so much i want to tell you but can’t why because i want to tell you to your face so it has even more meaning than what it means to you now.All the other things i posted up i wanted to tell you face-to-face but didn’t so i promise the next time i see you i will lay it all down and tell you what i am thinking but w/my thoughts all together.I love you so much.And i just want you to...
You know i have to say i feel like a real horrible person to you sometimes and its not even your fault.Your not the reason of my problems your the one who trys to help but it never fails that i make you feel bad.Know its not you
Sometimes when i don’t realize it i am heartless.
I don’t mean to but it just happens.If things in between me and my grandma were a lot better i would feel better.But it takes so much just not to snap and do the most unforgivable thing ever.But i realize i have a goal in life.I know her and many others think i won’t be a success they say it so much that i start to believe it...
I can’t believe that we have made it to this moment i never thought i see it but we have and i am so happy for us.I knew in past time i wasn’t included in that future of yours but now knowing that i am means so much to me.Oh yeah i think about you too alot i don’t even intend to but i do.I see in my future i hope you know even w/ my career.I don’t care what people say any...
Confession # 2
It would be nice if my mom acted more like a mom to me and my brother i think i would feel a lot better in life yeah its cool you work and do all this stuff but actually guiding us in life and doing what most moms do would be great…Coming from an angry child
Confession # 1
I hate people that think they are better than everyone else…I understand having confidence but over doing it kills me…So word of advice go FUCK yourselves thank you bye
One word BLAH
So you talk about how your heart skips a beat,your breathing becomes heavy,and how your arms feels like Jello…Now its my turn to say how i feel. I love how me and you can get in to a simple fight about who loves each other more….But if you really knew the feelings i had inside you might think differently and then again maybe not….But when it comes to you everything around me...
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The stimulation
So you know the whole test where you look in the mirror and say what you see…So i finally decided to do that. So what i saw was nothing. Like the nothingness i have inside me. Its empty l have no feeling no emotions inside me left. I only act the way i do is so people don’t ask questions and people aren’t wondering whats wrong…So maybe the next time i decide to look again...
Whatever comes to mind
So today has just been one of those unexplainable…Its like i wake up and now its all over…Damn i am so tired of the same boring things in life over and over again can something exciting please happen.